I had a pretty bad ass day, and I know I deserved it.
The job and financial situations are looking up.
I really needed this.
NOTHING will fuck up my day.
Sigh...

There were some moments when the sun was blocked out by the sun today...I was so fuckin excited. Fuck the heat. I dont know how I played softball for so long with out letting the fuckin heat take my life.
Hair color smells bad. Really bad.
School makes me excited. I cant wait.
I have a feeling that there are going to be some huge changes in my life in the next couple months. I hate to admit it, but life is chaotic when school isn't there to take your mind off it.
My mom still thinks I have the petsmart job...I feel like shit for letting her think that. The only problem is, what do I tell her?! "Yeah...I didnt get the job cuz of my drug screening..." She hates that I smoke bud. My dad is totally cool with it though. It makes me happy that I have such well balanced parents. Okay, by well balanced I mean that my parents hate eachothers quirks, so when one wont understand something, the other will just to spite the not-so-understanding parent. Its a nice set up. lol
I have some hair cutting to do...im out.

Fuck Petsmart...didnt get th job...took em a week to tell me that.
Fuck ZebraHead for selling me that bullshit that doesnt work. Its called Onmi Clean by the way...
My sleeping schedule is totally fucked right now...I just woke up.
I have a problem that I just cant solve.
The biology dept. from school called me and I had to change my classes around a little. My Wed. is eaten up now. More tweaking is needed.
School is about to start and I havent gone school supply shopping. That needs to happen immediately.
So, we went to Wal-Mart the other night, and we got a 1000 piece photomosaic puzzle of mickey mouse. Its hard as fuck, and has become a group project.
I wanna go to San Antonio soon.

First off, I have to send a huge

I'll be at Petsmart tomorrow morning....well this morning really. 8am. The only problem...they dont even have my drug test results in yet! So for all I know, I'll start my orientation and in the middle theyre gonna ask me to leave. FUCK. This is so dramatic. lol

I was in my car the other night listening to "No Diggity" by blackstreet on 107.5, and I decided to look in my rear view mirror. I saw the girl in the car behind me, and worded the words "no diggity" completely synched with my radio. I just thought it was interesting that someone in the car behind me was listening to the same exact radio station I was, AND new the words!

Fuckin Michael Myers needs to stay out of my damn dreams. I blame Rob Zombie.

I GOT A CALL BACK FROM PETSMART! More of that shit please. However, there is a down side. I RANDOMLY got sick a couple of days ago, so Ive been down and out for a while. Im still not 100%, but I should be able to make it through my interview tomorrow. One thing that does scare me though...the drug test. HOW THE FUCK DO I PASS THIS TEST?!

Scott Baio is an asshole...why the fuck does he need a fuckin TV show to tell him that? That show is pointless. A slew of ex's telling him hes worthless, and a bunch of dickbag friends that try to tempt him to cheat on his girl. No second season for him.

OH yeah! So the court decided to give me defensive driving for my ticket. Ew. Court. It sounds so...illegal. lol

Petsmart...here I come. I hope.

I think its scary that major news networks like CNN cover stories about Paris and Lindsay. Homegirls? Yeah. CNN-worthy? Not so much.
We might get some internet in this bitch soon. Im so fuckin excited.
Fuck the iPhone. So tired of those damn commercials.
I'm getting so tired of not working. I feel idle. I havent not worked in a long time. There are just too many hours in a summer day.
My lungs are for shit right now. Smoke...smoke...and more smoke.
There will be some partying this week. It needs to happen. I still havent gotten all shitty like planned.
I'm wearing my hair big tomorrow...my presence must be known! lol
I also feel a little bad for taking a job from someone...but thats the shit that happens when you go on after Beyonce. lol

So I kicked some major ass on the job search today. I already have two really great possibilities at some pretty fly places. Its either ColdStone, or Dress Barn (lol). I know I know, DRESS BARN?! lol It's money alright? I'm really hoping for ColdStone. I think it would be pretty awesome to work there. Not too crazy...really small place...no DT...it works! lol I also left a BUNCH of messages at some dog training, grooming, and kennel facilities. Hopefully soon something happens!

I totally thought today was Tuesday. It totally fucked me all up.
Paid my fuckin ticket today. How annoying.
Late night TV gets worse and worse.

So the little vacay to San Anto was not so vacay-ish.
It's good to be back in Denton.
Lego Star Wars is the way to go people. If you need to kill some hours in your day, get that shit.
The job search is still on.
On the way back up here, I decided that rest stop bathrooms are too prison like.
I also saw some ho driving a car just like Herbert. Im WAY more fly than her.
Linday Lohan is totally going to fuckin jail. Dang that poor girl is gonna kill her career before it actually gets a start. Its that nose juice...people just get sucked in.
I miss having a dog.
So a lot of the places Ive applied to call for Drug Testing. I guess I have to get a detox kit. How annoying.
The job I think I want most is a dog grooming position. I would love to learn. If not one of the pet stores, I've seen one in town. I want to go in and ask about it.
I wish I grew up in the 60s.
School needs to bring its ugly face around a little faster. I cant wait. Ima kill it.
My mom said it would be okay for me to get ordained and be able to perform her civil ceremony for her and Pauline if they go the distance.

I've officially decided that I'm sick and fuckin tired of Justin Timberlake music videos of nothing but him dancing. Annoying.
I can get out of my ticket with some Defensive Driving.
I've put in several apps already. The waiting begins.
San Anto tomorrow. Earlier than expected, but why not?
I dont know how to feel about the song "Hey there Delilah." It's annoying kinda, but catchy as fuck.
I'm counting down the days till I can see that beautiful XBOX 360 in my living room. I'm going for the Elite. It's gonna be awesome.
I want to party really fuckin hard soon. After I get back maybe...its been a while.
There is absolutely nothing I wouldnt do for some more Charm School. lol
I cried at a puppy commercial for Petsmart today...it was just too fuckin cute.
Damian told me that I cuss in my sleep too. I guess I'm even subconsciously profane.
It was a pretty good day.

I had a rude awakening this past weekend when I was in San Antonio. My mom finally came clean to my grandmother about my major, and she decided to ask me why I wanted part in peoples sexual lives. And I explained to her that its not just people talking to me about sex, its also about using my reputation to possibly help the youth of America from becoming kids having kids. I also explained to her that I want to run some sort of campaign educating young boys and girls about birth control, and how to use different contraceptives. She looked at me in a puzzled way, and asked when sex was no longer considered a decision and just expected of kids today. She seemed a little bothered at what I wanted to do because maybe she felt it was wrong. Maybe it was the Mexican, Catholic woman in her that just wont accept it. Maybe growing up in a time where being sexual was evil and taboo has her stuck in a time warp. I decided to change the subject as soon as possible because no matter how strongly I feel about what I want to do, I know she will never accept it completely. It just blew my mind. I think its hard for me to even imagine living in a more religiously controlled lifestyle.

As of late, I'm addicted to the Braum's Sherbet Freeze in either the Cherry Limeade, or orange flavor. They're fantastic, people.
We're getting a new recliner on Sunday.
Heading back home to San Anto for a couple days.
My dad called me for relationship advice today...I thought it was cute.
Ive become a damn good joint roller.
Special brownies tomorrow.
Job hunt tomorrow.
Although I just left San Anto, I already miss my mom.
This world series of pop culture shit on vh1 is badass...

I got a speeding ticket going home to San Antonio. When I got back into Denton, I rolled a joint with it.

I'm gonna apply to bars and see what happens. Bartending=Money.

I helped my mom get a car and I'm really happy about it. I'm proud of her.

There was another cancer scare with my grandpa. They found a spot on his lung, did a biopsy(spelling?), and it came out clean. It scared the hell out of me. Im more scared of losing him than losing anything else in the world.

Despite everything, I came back to Denton ten times better than when I left.

The bitches next door are being too loud for my life.
Myspace pisses me the fuck off with all that damn spam.
Im tired but cant sleep.
New BBB on Wed.
I need a good weekend...meaning I need to get as stoned and/or drunk as possible.
I did facebook renovations.
I've decided that 5am is way too uneventful and something needs to be done about that.
Peace.

Yeah, I know I tried to set up one of these motherfuckers before, but I forgot everything about that damn account so here I am again. Don't judge my damn life. lol

This journal is very exclusive...very few people know about this, and I think I'd like to keep it that way. I just kinda hate how in-your-face and public MySpace is, so I wanted to get into something thats more chill.

I have never been more proud to be a strong woman more than I am right now. My homegirl is fuckin trippin over this relationship that she just cant save because she feels that she needs him to survive. THATS SOME BULLSHIT. Shes goin around talking to me about how her fuckin world falls apart with out him and its fuckin killing me. I hate to think that some bitches now a days are letting men control their lives. My momma told me a long time ago to not let a man control my life because I'm all I got, and I'm all I'm ever gonna securely have control over, and once you let that shit go, its gone forever. Once you let that go, a man will be able to walk all over you forever. Believe me, I love the man in my life right now, but if some shit happens down the line and we find out that we're not meant to be together, baby believe I'm gonna be a sad mothafucker for a while, but my world will NOT stop. I will NOT let my shit fall apart because of it and I would hope its the same for him. Someone who lets that happen to themselves, in my opinon, doesn't love themselves enough. Someone who lets that happen needs someone to complete them because they dont believe they can hold it down for themselves.

The worst part about this shit is that she texted me today telling me she was going on a date. Imagine my confusion. WHAT THE FUCK?! So I sat there with you when you were crying, when you were falling apart because you dont want to lose him, but youre on a fucking DATE?!?! Then I come to find out that she has not only one but TWO dates. AND THEN the girl has the audacity to tell me that she doesnt think shes in love with her man anymore. I cant fuckin handle this shit. This is why I dont fuckin like chicks. Why the fuck are you gonna say youre gonna stand by your man and you dont even feel for him anymore? Now, when shit goes down, am I gonna be there for her? No. Why? Because I've done what I can and I've given my advice to her. She wont listen to anyone but herself. I hate this situation because I've had so much respect for her...looked up to her even...and now I feel like shes a little girl that I have to take care of. Its shitty man. Its a shitty fuckin feeling when you do all you can for someone and even point them in the right direction, and its all forgotten and they go and fuck themselves over anyway. Come on ladies...wheres all the strength at?